You hold the answers deep within your own mind.
Consciously, you’ve forgotten it.
That’s the way the human mind works.
Whenever something is too unpleasant, to shameful for us
to entertain, we reject it.
We erase it from our memories.
But the imprint is always there.
But the imprint is always there. Nothing is ever really forgotten.
So yeah, that really applies to me. I’d say more, but I don’t really want to bore you with a rambling philosophical discussion that you probably don’t wish to hear, or read, for that matter. Perhaps I should go amble off to bed now, but I don’t seem to remember my dreams, so sleeping is rather boring for me. But then, if I don’t sleep, I’ll be rather moody for a while.
You know, Tuesday through Thursday last week were not the best days I’ve ever experienced, I managed to really piss off the person who I care about most, and truthfully, I deserved her wrath. I was being mean and I feel really bad. I think that we are back to normal now (or at least a semblance thereof). So if you’re reading this, and you know who you are, I’m just saying I’m sorry again, even though it’s rather superfluous now. You mean so much to me you don’t even know.
You know what, school is over until the fall now. And then I’m a senior, what a scary thought. And for some reason I’m taking AP literature with Ms. Lauritsen, I’m a idiot for doing that, I mean, she’s a good teacher and all, but it would be nice if she wouldn’t grade on whether or not you agreed with her on literary interpretations. But other then that, I’m guess that class won’t be that bad. Oh, and the AP Government, they decided that the class before school was a breech of some asinine union rules and they can’t allow it. So instead it’s 3 days a week during 1st period both terms. And right before I found out about that I was offered the Video Productions TA (Teachers Aide or Technology Assistant, depending on your interpretation). So first term I will do the gov’t class three times a week, and the TA twice a week, which is cool, because I’ve always wanted to do stuff with video editing, equipment and such. Second term is independent study with that gov’t class, the actual AP test should be a relative breeze.
Speaking of classes and schools, college selection is coming up. The University of Washington is my first choice (for many reasons, prestige, family connections, the fact we’re dumping money into the Tyee association…), and Washington State University is my second option. I’m leaning towards a Major in Political Science and a minor in American History, but those are a little flexible, the subject area is the same though. After getting the undergraduate degree, I’ll apply for admission to the UW School of Law, where I will focus on Corporate Law. Say what you will, but I really do enjoy these areas of study, believe it or not.
I dunno what else to write about now, so I will bid you adieu with this phrase to chew your respective udders on, “Deus Ex Machina,” or “God Comes from the Machine.” Rather interesting quote, I think. I particularly enjoy working it into everyday conversation. Wow, I am really rambling on tonight.
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