You hold the answers deep within your own mind.
Con­sciously, you’ve for­got­ten it.
That’s the way the human mind works.
When­ever some­thing is too unpleas­ant, to shame­ful for us
to enter­tain, we reject it.
We erase it from our mem­o­ries.
But the imprint is always there.

But the imprint is always there. Noth­ing is ever really forgotten.

So yeah, that really applies to me. I’d say more, but I don’t really want to bore you with a ram­bling philo­soph­i­cal dis­cus­sion that you prob­a­bly don’t wish to hear, or read, for that mat­ter. Per­haps I should go amble off to bed now, but I don’t seem to remem­ber my dreams, so sleep­ing is rather bor­ing for me. But then, if I don’t sleep, I’ll be rather moody for a while.

You know, Tues­day through Thurs­day last week were not the best days I’ve ever expe­ri­enced, I man­aged to really piss off the per­son who I care about most, and truth­fully, I deserved her wrath. I was being mean and I feel really bad. I think that we are back to nor­mal now (or at least a sem­blance thereof). So if you’re read­ing this, and you know who you are, I’m just say­ing I’m sorry again, even though it’s rather super­flu­ous now. You mean so much to me you don’t even know.

You know what, school is over until the fall now. And then I’m a senior, what a scary thought. And for some rea­son I’m tak­ing AP lit­er­a­ture with Ms. Lau­rit­sen, I’m a idiot for doing that, I mean, she’s a good teacher and all, but it would be nice if she wouldn’t grade on whether or not you agreed with her on lit­er­ary inter­pre­ta­tions. But other then that, I’m guess that class won’t be that bad. Oh, and the AP Gov­ern­ment, they decided that the class before school was a breech of some asi­nine union rules and they can’t allow it. So instead it’s 3 days a week dur­ing 1^st period both terms. And right before I found out about that I was offered the Video Pro­duc­tions TA (Teach­ers Aide or Tech­nol­ogy Assis­tant, depend­ing on your inter­pre­ta­tion). So first term I will do the gov’t class three times a week, and the TA twice a week, which is cool, because I’ve always wanted to do stuff with video edit­ing, equip­ment and such. Sec­ond term is inde­pen­dent study with that gov’t class, the actual AP test should be a rel­a­tive breeze.

Speak­ing of classes and schools, col­lege selec­tion is com­ing up. The Uni­ver­sity of Wash­ing­ton is my first choice (for many rea­sons, pres­tige, fam­ily con­nec­tions, the fact we’re dump­ing money into the Tyee asso­ci­a­tion…), and Wash­ing­ton State Uni­ver­sity is my sec­ond option. I’m lean­ing towards a Major in Polit­i­cal Sci­ence and a minor in Amer­i­can His­tory, but those are a lit­tle flex­i­ble, the sub­ject area is the same though. After get­ting the under­grad­u­ate degree, I’ll apply for admis­sion to the UW School of Law, where I will focus on Cor­po­rate Law. Say what you will, but I really do enjoy these areas of study, believe it or not.

I dunno what else to write about now, so I will bid you adieu with this phrase to chew your respec­tive udders on, “Deus Ex Machina,” or “God Comes from the Machine.” Rather inter­est­ing quote, I think. I par­tic­u­larly enjoy work­ing it into every­day con­ver­sa­tion. Wow, I am really ram­bling on tonight.